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Things Are Good

 

Apparently this is like a monthly occurrence. Things on my end have been low key and nice for the most part. Main thing is school stress, and I'm a little nervous about my mood swings, but I think they're just hormonal. Things really have been more steady. I mean I had a mental breakdown a couple days ago over school so that was fun. But talked it out which was healthy. OH YEAH I have given up energy drinks again.! I've made it... going on 23 days. It's rough. I just miss them and I miss being a busy bee. But they have the potential to make me manic which isn't as good as I think it is. Plus I don't really want to have a heart attack. I am still drinking coffee. Just none of the energy drinks. I got a slight raise at work, I think they wanna keep me above min wage, which I'm NOT complaining over. Every bit helps. I got Disney+ but I haven't really watched it in awhile. I'm rewatching NCIS on Netflix and The Golden Girls on Hulu. I'm super into Minecraft again. Making videos and such. I have 2 vids I need to edit. I've been watching someone called TheNeoCubest. He's great. I still love The Sims 4 (Even through their controversy) But I haven't played in months. I also haven't played my Planet Zoo game in ages.! That one I really miss. But I get bored with it. They came out with The Australia pack last month? Still haven't gotten it. It's not that I don't want to, I just haven't put down time and money. OH YEAH I got a crayfish! And some Gourami. ALSO I finally saw my mentor again after MONTHS. I missed her muuuchhhooooo. <3 I also weighed myself which I'm not a fan of, I only gained give or take 5lbs since March. I was convinced I gained like 30lbs. So I started working out a little bit. Trying to not focus on the numbers and just how I feel, cus my brain lies to me. There also might be a boooooooyyyyyyyyyy in the works. That's all I'm gonna say about that. I didn't read my last post but basically no updates on jailbait. Maybe the hearing got cancelled or he got denied. Dunno. Worry about it next year. I didn't break this up with gifs and I'm honestly too lazy to get pics from my phone of my new pets. Check the Insta. Lol. 



































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