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Is it almost April? 
.................................
Yup. 

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School and work just kinda sucked the life out of me since January. 
So here's the quick low-down of what's been going on. 

  • I was a manager 
  • I wasn't a manager 
  • School sucked the life out of me, but I'm still getting A's and B's 
  • I have wanted to walk out of my job multiple times 
  • I've cried over my job
  • I've been applying like a fene to other places 
  • I started going to program multiple times a week 
  • Saw an APRN and got on ADD meds
  • Lol they didn't work-made me more manic 
  • Told her everything about my moods and she confirmed I have bipolar disorder..
  • BIPOLAR DISORDER 1 BY THE WAY NOT 2 JUST 1 LIKE REALLY REALLLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYY? 
  • So I'm back on Lamictal 
  • I got blood work to see how my organs were for Lithium
  • I had reserves about that medication to begin with 
  • Got my bloodwork, sugars still high. 
  • She wants me to get a regular doctor, but understands I don't want meds for it
  • I called my insurence and have a few names I have to call them today
  • I also found out my dental's covered so I need to make an appt there too 
  • I've procrastinated on school lately, got 2 essays I need to do today and be done with them tomorrow at the latest 
  • The outlines are done at least, but I have no motivation 
  • I feel like my lifes just chaotic and I have many a things to do and that's overwhleming 
  • I know it will all work out
  • OH! I'm super into crystals again! :D 
  • And I'm going to Kansas in May
  • And I'm fixing my old Dell 
  • And I'm going to a wedding in May
  • I have a lot of videos I need to edit and get up 
  • I am starting a new project this month, called "Cleaning Up My Past" Where I clean my room and tree house and work through the issues and clean it all up so I can finally move on and put my past to rest. It's kinda emotional. 
  • I'm trying to film it, because I know it will help me process it 
  • I want to do everything but my homework right now. :) 
  • I'm going to go get ready to get my check from work and maybe bring my laptop and do other work somewhere else bc home isn't cutting it 
  • OH I took a food allergy test, and found out I can't have certain things, mainly soy stuff. 
  • And I cut out the energy drinks and extreme caffine from my life 
  • I'm just trying to get my life together yall, I promise 
Ok that's it. 

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Bye. 

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OH YEAH PS LITTLE ADDICTION CHECK IN:

SAFE: 1 year 3 months and 28 days 
SOBER: 10 months and 16 days 
CAFFINE (2 med size a day only): 2 months and 1 day (Oh heyyyyy) 
Nicotine: 5 months and 9 days 

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