Hello. I don't know why I have so much in my brain, and then it's not coming out. Like PLEASE GET OUT I would like to have some peace. But that will never happen, cus my brain is broken. That's all I seem to say lately. I don't know, I think I'm in a mixed mood. I like wanna die, but like I also wanna do xyz all at once. My body isn't vibrating like it does when I get manicy, but like mentally I'm wired, but physically I can't express it. Physically it's like I'm in mud that takes your shoe away, and you're panicing to get your shoe back, but you keep getting stuck. I've been feeling like this for weeks if I'm being honest. I keep doubting the mania, because it's not.. there? But it is, the depression is just covering it. Suffocating it. I also think that's why I was all, I don't have bipolar, I'm normal because having both highs and lows are normal. But this is always x10 with me. It's not just like I'm havi